Today pretty much went downhill since the weigh-in, because I went to my most hated place on earth...THE MALL. Words cannot express how much I despise that place. But, I start work next week, and I need clothes. Anyway, I went to one store, had a pity party in the change room about how gross my arms are and how bloated my stomach looks, and then I left without buying anything and went home. So I think that mall trip could be classified as "unsuccessful".
Since then, I've had some time to think it over. I weigh 148 lbs...which is only 8 lbs away from 140, which I deem to be an acceptable weight. (I would much prefer to be in the 130s, but 140 is "okay".) That is NOT that far away. I just need to keep trucking away at this. And in the meantime, I will attempt the mall again tomorrow...siiigh.
Eating-wise, today was okay, I guess. I ordered a food scale from Amazon, because I've been doing a lot of guessing as to portion sizes when I add up my calories, and I usually err on the side of overestimating calories. It will be interesting to see how close I actually am. I ate some grapes today, but I just bought a tiny bag of them so that there was no chance I could overdo it. Also, I grilled up some flank steak and ate it with salad for lunch, and then the leftovers for dinner, because YUM. I haven't had red meat in a while, and damn, it's good. I'll have to look into some leaner cuts though, because flank steak is kinda fatty.
Tomorrow is Day 22, which is 'Say Oh Well to Disappointment". I will give it a try!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Weigh-in Update
148.0 this morning, for a total loss of......1 pound. I hoped for more than that, but progress is progress. Onwards!
Monday, July 5, 2010
Day 21
So, tomorrow is Day 21, which is the first official weigh-in day. I'm a bit nervous. The scale said 147.6 this morning, but I ate a lot of stuff today. In the first 2 weeks of the South Beach Diet, you're not supposed to eat fruit, but since this is week 3 for me I bought some from the grocery store and ended up going a bit overboard (you're supposed to gradually add fruit back in, starting with one piece per day). Whoops.
Anyway, things are going along like normal...I'm making healthy choices, but still eating a LOT. But hopefully this will be enough to lose 1lb or so a week. I made a little chart in my notebook, so we'll see what the scale says tomorrow!
Anyway, things are going along like normal...I'm making healthy choices, but still eating a LOT. But hopefully this will be enough to lose 1lb or so a week. I made a little chart in my notebook, so we'll see what the scale says tomorrow!
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Day 20
148.2 this morning...annoying, but my stomach is definitely looking flatter than a few weeks ago, so I know I'm making progress despite what the scale says. My "official" weigh-in day is Tuesday, so we'll see then!
Today I ate a whole lot of coleslaw salad with Trader Joe's Spicy Peanut Vinaigrette that I brought back from Washington last weekend. They don't have TJs in Canada, and I miss it soooo much. I end up smuggling half the store back with me :) Anyway, I love that stuff like you wouldn't believe, but the second ingredient is sugar, so even though I use only a bit and eat it with a whole pile of cabbage and broccoli slaw, it still isn't really the healthiest choice. I did some googling and found some recipes that look promising, so hopefully I will be able to come up with a healthier but still delicious version.
Back to the Beck Book...tomorrow is Day 20, which is Get Back On Track. Once again, Judith totally has my number on this one. Usually one slip-up for me turns into a big binge, and then all my efforts are wasted. I've been doing pretty well so far, but I wrote up a card that I'll refer to when I inevitably do get off track.
Happy 4th of July, everyone!
Today I ate a whole lot of coleslaw salad with Trader Joe's Spicy Peanut Vinaigrette that I brought back from Washington last weekend. They don't have TJs in Canada, and I miss it soooo much. I end up smuggling half the store back with me :) Anyway, I love that stuff like you wouldn't believe, but the second ingredient is sugar, so even though I use only a bit and eat it with a whole pile of cabbage and broccoli slaw, it still isn't really the healthiest choice. I did some googling and found some recipes that look promising, so hopefully I will be able to come up with a healthier but still delicious version.
Back to the Beck Book...tomorrow is Day 20, which is Get Back On Track. Once again, Judith totally has my number on this one. Usually one slip-up for me turns into a big binge, and then all my efforts are wasted. I've been doing pretty well so far, but I wrote up a card that I'll refer to when I inevitably do get off track.
Happy 4th of July, everyone!
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Day 19
Today was a tough day. The scale said 147.6 today, which is down from yesterday, but still higher than last Saturday. I'm just kind of frustrated, because I feel like I've been doing really well, and if the scale isn't moving much now, how on earth am I going to do this in the coming weeks when I'm busy working, or when I'm going out with friends?! And also today, I was hungry, like, the entire day. And I ended up eating a lot, so I'm sure the scale will be even higher tomorrow.
BUT, thinking positively here...even though I was hungry today, I stuck to all SBD foods, and just had an additional giant salad and turkey burger. In the "old" days, I would get mad at myself for being hungry, and then mad at myself for eating more, and then mad at myself for getting fat in the first place, and then I would just eat everything in sight because I didn't care anymore because I was too MAD. Today I ate more than I planned, but I didn't get out of control, and I plan on doing a new workout DVD tonight to get some solid exercise in. Screw the scale, I am making good progress here, and I just need to be PATIENT.
To be honest, I kind of secretly hoped that if I stuck to the SBD, I'd lose 8-14 lbs in 2 weeks like they claim, and then if I just stick with it for a few more weeks I'd be in the 130s again, and THEN losing 1-2lbs a week would be fine. Obviously that was really dumb, and losing 8lbs in 2 weeks is an unrealistic goal, and if I DID lose 8lbs a lot of it would be water weight, and wouldn't last, etc. Moving forward, I just need to continue making healthy choices, and the results will come all in good time.
Whew, I feel a bit better now after all of that.
Day 19! Stop Fooling Yourself. I found this chapter kind of amusing, because I have thought EVERY SINGLE THING on the list of ways you fool yourself, at one time or another. And all of the Sabotaging Thoughts at the back too! One of the reasons I like this book a lot is because I really feel like Judith is 'on to me'. And if she's an expert, and she says doing these 42 steps will help me think like a thin person, then I WILL, dammit! :)
BUT, thinking positively here...even though I was hungry today, I stuck to all SBD foods, and just had an additional giant salad and turkey burger. In the "old" days, I would get mad at myself for being hungry, and then mad at myself for eating more, and then mad at myself for getting fat in the first place, and then I would just eat everything in sight because I didn't care anymore because I was too MAD. Today I ate more than I planned, but I didn't get out of control, and I plan on doing a new workout DVD tonight to get some solid exercise in. Screw the scale, I am making good progress here, and I just need to be PATIENT.
To be honest, I kind of secretly hoped that if I stuck to the SBD, I'd lose 8-14 lbs in 2 weeks like they claim, and then if I just stick with it for a few more weeks I'd be in the 130s again, and THEN losing 1-2lbs a week would be fine. Obviously that was really dumb, and losing 8lbs in 2 weeks is an unrealistic goal, and if I DID lose 8lbs a lot of it would be water weight, and wouldn't last, etc. Moving forward, I just need to continue making healthy choices, and the results will come all in good time.
Whew, I feel a bit better now after all of that.
Day 19! Stop Fooling Yourself. I found this chapter kind of amusing, because I have thought EVERY SINGLE THING on the list of ways you fool yourself, at one time or another. And all of the Sabotaging Thoughts at the back too! One of the reasons I like this book a lot is because I really feel like Judith is 'on to me'. And if she's an expert, and she says doing these 42 steps will help me think like a thin person, then I WILL, dammit! :)
Friday, July 2, 2010
Day 18
Hey hey...148.6 this morning, which is kind of annoying, but I am doing really well, and my stomach looks flatter, so oh well. Today's big victory was going shopping at Costco...there was sooooo much good stuff that I wanted to buy, and I didn't get any of it! (For example the jumbo size bags of trail mix, and larabars, and costco cookies, and...well, everything really!) I told myself "It's not like I can't have this EVER...I just shouldn't buy this right now, because I know it will sabotage my diet efforts, and I've been doing really well". Somehow that's easier to accept than just "NO, CAN'T HAVE IT!"
I really hope that the scale is down tomorrow...last saturday it was 147.2, and even though I overate last weekend, it would still be really discouraging if the scale hasn't budged.
Day 18 is 'Change Your Definition of Full'...after each meal I'm supposed to analyze how full I am. And stop eating before I get too full!
I really hope that the scale is down tomorrow...last saturday it was 147.2, and even though I overate last weekend, it would still be really discouraging if the scale hasn't budged.
Day 18 is 'Change Your Definition of Full'...after each meal I'm supposed to analyze how full I am. And stop eating before I get too full!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Day 17, Attempt #2
I totally forgot to do the leave-some-food-on-your-plate thing today. whoops. But, I am going to make a big fajita salad tomorrow, so I'll give myself a giant serving of that and save some for later.
I went to a big Canada Day bbq today, and I got a 'lean turkey smokey' dog...pure garbage to be sure, but probably a LOT less calories than the jumbo dog that I actually wanted. AND, I didn't eat the bun, even though it probably made me look like a weirdo. (Now that I think of it, getting something not on your diet plan and not eating it was part of Day 17...so I guess I did that part after all!) I was feeling kind of 'meh' about what I ate today (I also had some minestrone soup with pasta in it), but then I looked at my food diary and realized that in the grand scheme of things, I did pretty well after all!
Anyway, the thing that I am most proud of though is that when I got home I was in the mood to eat things...not particularly hungry, I just wanted to EAT. I snacked on some sugar snap peas and feta cheese, and then I still wanted more. Like maybe some wheat thins crackers, or popcorn, or chips... BUT, I told myself all the very cliche things from the Beck Book like "This is a craving, and it is great that I am identifying it as such, and strengthening my not-giving-in muscle by resisting it". And then I got out of the house and went for a walk. And now I'm back and I'm drinking a big mug of tea, and the craving has passed. VICTORY!
I went to a big Canada Day bbq today, and I got a 'lean turkey smokey' dog...pure garbage to be sure, but probably a LOT less calories than the jumbo dog that I actually wanted. AND, I didn't eat the bun, even though it probably made me look like a weirdo. (Now that I think of it, getting something not on your diet plan and not eating it was part of Day 17...so I guess I did that part after all!) I was feeling kind of 'meh' about what I ate today (I also had some minestrone soup with pasta in it), but then I looked at my food diary and realized that in the grand scheme of things, I did pretty well after all!
Anyway, the thing that I am most proud of though is that when I got home I was in the mood to eat things...not particularly hungry, I just wanted to EAT. I snacked on some sugar snap peas and feta cheese, and then I still wanted more. Like maybe some wheat thins crackers, or popcorn, or chips... BUT, I told myself all the very cliche things from the Beck Book like "This is a craving, and it is great that I am identifying it as such, and strengthening my not-giving-in muscle by resisting it". And then I got out of the house and went for a walk. And now I'm back and I'm drinking a big mug of tea, and the craving has passed. VICTORY!
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